Monday, May 23, 2011

Topics proffered by other voices

I used to open this page and write whatever came out unbid, then wonder how people could respond with positivity, glibness or even a lovely invitation for me to cop the fuck on and realise that love wasn't just something that happened to other people.

I seldom knew what I'd write about before opening the browser and that's why I've never taken to being offered a subject on which to blather, topics proffered by other voices.

Funny things, blogs, for their breadth and their untidy ramblings, for the links that have migrated to Twitter and for the occasional gold that remains.

A funny thing to a comment whore like myself, vomiting words for words to wake up to, but it's all got a little bit lost since I've realised that one set of eyes seeking me out in a room is enough, for any man, and the once cherished (3) of a Gmail account is the most anti-climactic thing in the world.

I remain, though, I persist. This is not a giving up. I still get mornings like the one that happened today, sitting on a bus for an hour and a half in the rain while Dublin shuts itself down so a man can drink a pint.

Mornings like this one on Clanbrassil Street where I look out from the 19A and a phrase hits me that I'll probably never use, but I like the thought that I can, and the comment whore inside me will get his end away. I may have lost some structure but I'm trying to get it back.

15 comments:

Holemaster said...

Yep. I'm all over place. Thinking of an entirely different blog, different name. Writings from the deepest beginnings of me.

Radge said...

I'd read it. I'm more for the personal stuff.

canine letters said...

Apostrophe Day

Red Leeroy said...

Yeah I hear what you're saying, I often miss the morning postings and interaction, and sometimes still sit looking at the new post button, but it never happens.

Radge said...

The longer you leave it, the more daunting it becomes. I'd welcome a comeback from yourself, that said.

NaRocRoc said...

Ah sure you've stuck at this long, through thick and thin! And you've got a very distinctive blogging voice and style that draws people back again and again. So you'd better keep at it is what I'm saying!

Radge said...

NaRocRoc and Red Leeroy on the same comments page. I'm not sure how I feel about it being 2009 all over again.

Cheers, though, NaRocRoc. I haven't considered giving it up, I'll always find something to shite on about.

Kitty Cat said...

Well I'm glad you'll always find something to shite on about, as I do so enjoy your turns of phrase. Also, gold is right, Annie's blog has been even more spectacular than usual of late.

This Limbo said...

I hear you, Radge. Totally agree.

I think I'm in an emotionally abusive relationship with blogger.

But you were my inspiration for starting Limbo, so please do continue to write...even if it's about nothing at all, it's the words that matter to people like us.

Red Leeroy said...

2009 - good times

Andrew said...

I did think you might be making a mistake by not getting off that bus, pissy as it might have been outside.

As for this post,you've really nailed the current state of blogging, and how the need for it dips once you find someone who always listens to your tales, but how it means a lot to know it's always there as an outlet on the increasingly rare occasions that you find you need it. Nice one.

Radge said...

Kitty Cat - Agreed. Inspirational stuff from America.

Regina - That's a great thing that I inspired, I'm proud of that.

Red - (Gazes absentmindedly at the corner of the room, drifts off into nostalgia.)

Andrew - I didn't envy you getting out into that, before I got stuck on Clanbrassil Street for at least an hour. Thankfully I had nowhere to be.

There may be fewer bloggers but the quality remains, and looking at my blog roll now I see you, your good lady wife, Annie, Therese and Kitty Cat have all blogged. That's me sorted of this lazy morning.

Annie said...

Oh hi! Thanks for the love. I was having one of those panics earlier today that go: "WHY do I do this? Why why why? Delete delete delete!"

On the other hand, I WISH I had written more during happier times. I swear next time I'm truly happy I'm going to blog like the wind. Rosie is good at this. She didn't let a little thing like a happy marriage get in the way of her publish button. And neither should you, Radger the Badger.

Radge said...

You're most welcome, and you must keep it up.

As for Radger the Badger, it is my sincere hope that the new moniker doesn't stick!

Hannah said...

Blogging... like compulsive verbal diarrhea. I suffer from it too, and much like you, I am never short of things to shite on about. Blogging is a way to help me connect the dots in a somewhat hostile environment. Crappy or not, it's a good discipline and there is a lot to be said for your turn of phrase, as someone else pointed out. Re Annie's blog, I agree. I like it very much too.