"You know it will be different this time, don't you? You know you gave it up too easily last time, the four months killed if off, you were never the same. Never the same. You didn't care and that showed...
Antipathy to it. The man don't give a fuck but left it way too early. Remember when you gave it a chance? Thrived for a while. Thrived for months and then you thrived too much, got too comfortable before the gnawing started and you opted out, the very second that happened.
It's different now, they're not all idiots. Some, maybe most, but not all. Do it again and tell us the stories and write about it. Show your fucking bones."
No I fucking won't.